A cry to Abba....

My Abba..... 

Help me.... 

Help me... 

Teach me, I'm hungry..... 

I want more, I need more. 

Teach me your ways. 

I'm DESPERATE for you. 

Help me Lord. Purge me Lord. 

Where is the dross? In my heart? Take it out. 

In my thoughts? Wipe it out. 

Teach me that my mind may be renewed. 

Teach me. Tutor me. Bend me. Mould me. Fix me. 

ABBBBBAAAAA! Help me. Help me.... 

Help my limitations, my ignorance, 

Don't allow me perish due to ignorance, teach me, instruct me 

Give me the grace for obedience too, help me 

I DESIRE you, I desire you... mostly... 

Other desires show up and for them I shame, 

But thou art my ULTIMATE Desire, 

How do I please you? How do I draw you closer? 

Do you see me? Do you see my heart beat? Help me. 

Don't turn away from me..... Share your heart with me. 

Destroy my heart with what destroys yours. 

Help me to hate iniquity and to see your children with love and compassion 

Love and compassion... 

Love and compassion.... 

Break me with what breaks you..... 

Help me.... 

 *wrote this in August 2021. Felt led to share today. Maybe God wants anyone who reads my recent blog to know that even with growth, there is still hunger for more. It's never ending, we never really get to "the place" where we feel we are all there- and this is good. This keeps us where we need to be, reaching to God, reaching for more, reaching for strength and it keeps us humble, never feeling like we know it all and we have gotten to a place where we "get it", we've attained mastery of spiritual things- please see Philippians 3:12-16 TPT: I admit that I haven’t yet acquired the absolute fullness that I’m pursuing, but I run with passion into his abundance so that I may reach the purpose for which Christ Jesus laid hold of me to make me his own. 13 I don’t depend on my own strength to accomplish this;[f] however I do have one compelling focus: I forget all of the past as I fasten my heart to the future instead. 14 I run straight for the divine invitation of reaching the heavenly goal and gaining the victory-prize through the anointing of Jesus. 15 So let all who are fully mature have this same passion, and if anyone is not yet gripped by these desires,[g] God will reveal it to them. 16 And let us all advance together to reach this victory-prize, following one path with one passion.

Hungry.

Make me wise. 

Give me the Spirit of Wisdom and Revelation in the knowledge of you, 

Teach me your ways, 

Reveal yourself to me, show me thyself, 

Thou Mighty Man of War, Thou Mighty Man in Battle, 

Thou Jehovah, my Deliverer,

Teach me, 

I thought it was enough to express my Love and Desire, 

I thought it was enough to have you reveal thyself, 

The Prize to pay is heavy for me, 

I start to pay and then fail and then start over, 

HELP ME! 

Help my weakness! Help my limitation! 

Reveal thyself inspite of..... Help me... 

I hate to see your children oppressed 

Knowing knowledge and power overturns it, 

Help me..... help me.... 

Even if I never help to set your people free, I desire you, 

I want you, I want to know you.... I want more, 

I want intimacy.... 

Come to me, show me what I need to do... 

What are my consecrations? Show me... 

I hunger and thirst for you.... 

*wrote this as a note in August, 2021. Things are a bit different with where I am with God, more progress, but I'm even more hungry I guess. Felt led to share it so, share I will.