Faithful in Little.

May 25/5/2020

I'm literally sat here with my blog draft open, unsure where, how and what to start writing. Phew!
Firstly, I have felt like a bit of a ball dropper. I have been getting heavy promptings in my spirit about not only picking my writing up, but being faithful and diligent to and with it.
I've absolutely lost the zeal to write about things that I would write about in the past. So, in a sense, I'm not exactly sure what I am to write about and I'm not sure why God is leading me to pick this back up, but I will obey regardless.

The only thing really happening are the changes happening to and in me. In the period of my long break, I've literally been on a journey of discovery. Been through some wilderness and valley seasons that led me right where God had been seeking to take me all along- so, you may find my blogging a bit or drastically different: it's not  me, it's God's hand, His transforming hand...

  
Anyway, I began having the promptings to pick my writing back up at the end of last year but I wasn't sure I was hearing at all not to talk of hearing clearly, plus, there had been a lot happening at the time too, adjustments with work, childcare (Lord! That had been a real pain), and some other bits. So I thought it wasn't the time. So, this year, I'd started having the promptings again but when I'd sit down to write, nothing would come out. I'd often have the rush of inspiration and inspired posts but if I wasn't quick to write it down and quickly turn it into a post, that well would dry up by the time I'd found the time to sit in front of my laptop, ready to churn out the post.

So what this is saying to me is that I have to move IMMEDIATELY I get that wave of Inspiration.

June 18, 2020.

Ok, I truly have to 

July 21/7/2020 at 10:58pm.

Literally. I would be upset at myself with the fact that I have drawn out this post but, tbh, I'm not. I've just made my peace with God and, thankfully, I am in a trusting season with Him.

I just really wanted to come on here today to talk about being faithful in little. I feel like, a lot of times, we are reaching for so much and setting all these magnificent goals- and getting depressed or down when we aren't moving on with these goals but what we fail to do is to be faithful with the little that God has given us to watch over and to use. I realize that this Kingdom principle is one that God esteems HIGHLY, you cannot want millions if you haven't learned to manage thousands, you cannot be put over or succeed in leading millions or thousands of women when you have not succeeded in leading the people that God has placed under you- your kids, your domestic staff, your colleagues, your employees....... you cannot seek to gain spiritual growth and power when you have not made a habit of praying, studying the bible and cultivating a walk with God. If these things are not in place, what you merely have is a wish, a desire with no commensurate action backing it up.

Tbh, I'm picking back my writing up not only because I'd been getting the nudge to but also because I understand that not picking it back up despite the heavy burden I have carried in my heart this year directing that I pick it up is me being blatantly disobedient- and I'm truly truly sorry to my Abba for this and I have made my peace with Him and will seek, from hence forth, to be faithful in putting out posts.

What is that thing that you KNOW that you need to be doing but have been putting off? What is God convicting you about? Is He convicting you about how little time you spend with your kids but you find you are still not able to spend more time with them 'cos you are trying to chase your dreams and have not properly learned to prioritize your time and life? Is He convicting you about your wastefulness? What is He convicting you about? What is He asking you to be faithful with but which you feel you've not been able to figure out how to do? Take it to Abba in prayer. Ask Him to help you- pour it out. Let Him know just how much you want to do this but are feeling too distracted to- especially if it seems to be due to LEGITIMATE responsibilities. Ask Him to help you- He will make a way for you to be able to keep to what it is He is convicting you about. It could be in the shape of a breakthrough in the "chasing of your dreams" that means that you can now spend less time working and more time for your children or it could be that disruption that forces you to be there for your children and which the Lord uses to work out SOMETHING even better that you would not have been able to figure out or create by yourself. Just, take it to God in prayer. I am reminded of a teaching by Kenneth Hagin I listened to last year where he was saying that, one time, he had gotten really ill, so ill he was hospitalized and was basically slated to transit in a short time. I think he said he had been born with a "bad heart". Well, although he had been a Christian and all, he believes that God allowed that season of his life in order to literally force him to get quiet and to STUDY THE BIBLE. So, literally, he was stuck in the hospital with no excuse and so he studied. He studied like his life depended on it- because it did. I'll try to find the particular sermon and to link it to this post but, yes, he believes that that had happened to get  him still enough to deal with that heart issue with God's word. Sometimes things like this happen in our lives and it's just a call and a time to rely and seek God's face.

So, about faithfulness, Let's read this sobering verse (I find it sobering because it redirects my focus):

Matt 14: - 14 “For it is just like a man who was about to take a journey, and he called his servants together and entrusted them with his possessions. 15To one he gave five 

A talent was a measurement of weight, usually 58-80 pounds. One talent of silver was worth more than 15 years’ wages. One talent of gold was worth even more.talents, to another, two, and to another, one, each according to his own ability; and then he went on his journey. 16The one who had received the five talents went at once and traded with them, and he [made a profit and] gained five more. 17Likewise the one who had two [made a profit and] gained two more. 18But the one who had received the one went and dug a hole in the ground and hid his master’s money.

19 “Now after a long time the master of those servants returned and settled accounts with them. 20And the one who had received the five talents came and brought him five more, saying, ‘Master, you entrusted to me five talents. See, I have [made a profit and] gained five more talents.’ 21His master said to him, ‘Well done,good and faithful servant. You have been faithful and trustworthy over a little, I will put you in charge of many things; share in the joy of your master.’

22 “Also the one who had the two talents came forward, saying, ‘Master, you entrusted two talents to me. See, I have [made a profit and] gained two more talents.’ 23His master said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant. You have been faithful and trustworthy over a little, I will put you in charge of many things; share in the joy of your master.’24 “The one who had received one talent also came forward, saying, ‘Master, I knew you to be a harsh and demanding man, reaping [the harvest] where you did not sow and gathering where you did not scatter seed. 25So I was afraid [to lose the talent], and I went and hid your talent in the ground. See, you have what is your own.’

26 “But his master answered him, ‘You wicked, lazy servant, you knew that I reap [the harvest] where I did not sow and gather where I did not scatter seed. 27Then you ought to have put my money with the bankers, and at my return I would have received my money back with interest. 28So take the talent away from him, and give it to the one who has the ten talents.’

29 “For to everyone who has [and values his blessings and gifts from God, and has used them wisely], more will be given, and [he will be richly supplied so that] he will have an abundance; but from the one who does not have [because he has ignored or disregarded his blessings and gifts from God], even what he does have will be taken away. 30And throw out the worthless servant into the outer darkness; in that place [of grief and torment] there will be weeping [over sorrow and pain] and grinding of teeth [over distress and anger].

I find this verse really sobering firstly because:

1.It is Jesus talking- and we know that when Jesus talks, you drop everything and LISTEN!!

2. I feel attacked and convicted at the same time.

Think of it though, what are your gifts? Do you have any natural giftings, something that comes really easily to you that other people struggle with? Are you using your gift to the glory of God? Or are you using it to the glory of the world/devil or just leaving it to lie fallow?

Stir up that gift again. Stir it up and hand it back to God- by using the gift to bring him honour. Ask for forgiveness for any way in which you have neglected and abandoned it. Here's to being faithful with our gifts, talents and all that the Lord has put within us.

Sending you lots of Love and Lots of Light,

Judith Chimemerem-Onyegbosi.