Seeking.






I am seeking. I've been seeking. I've been seeking but I am not connecting.

Why? I am seeking your face Lord, I want to know You more, I want to hear from You, I want to please You, I want more, why do You not answer me? Why do You not reveal Thyself to me?
I ask for forgiveness for anything in me that puts You off, I ask for Your Mercy, I am thirsty, I want more, I am no longer satisfied, show me Thyself, show me Your power, can You not hear me? What am I doing wrong?

Scarred.




I really did not want to write about this because I reckoned I had processed it out of my mind but it just keeps coming back.

So sometime last month, I was looking through my phone to show Dh a funny meme I had in it. I saw that I had lots of pictures in my phone that I hadn't put in it (they had come from the Whatsapp chat group I was in) and so I proceeded to delete these pictures from my media and this opened up a video of a little girl of about three years old.

Musings, Musings, Musings......




It's at times like this I wish I were still writing anonymously. I've just got sooooooo much to say but I don't know where to start....
So I'm sat here, at 3.08am (it's 5:12 am now actually), laptop on my lap and writing with no clear direction- I just want to get my thoughts out, whatever they may be- I am hoping I will get clarity as I write....